10 Reasons Why Blogging Is Good For Me

So I read a post by a fellow blogger, ByLaurenHayley, today about 10 reasons why blogging is good for her. When I read the title of her post I started thinking to myself about how blogging has helped me. I could only think of about 2 reasons at the time but I’ve managed to get 10 reasons, so I thought I would share them all with my amazing readers! Here goes…

1) Everything Makes More Sense
It makes more sense, but still doesn’t make a lot of sense. I can kind of understand some of the things that are making me depressed, even though I had thought about them when my depression started. What originally started my depression is still a mystery, but when I write about my troubles I realise things about my life that I never knew. This is why I encourage everyone to write blogs.

2) I Know I’ve Helped People, Wow!
I won’t reveal this persons identity but once after writing a post about me contacting Samaritans helpline I received a message from someone saying they were suicidal and they wanted to know how to talk to Samaritans. I will never know what would have happened to them if I didn’t reply but I did, we talked about some stuff and later they told me they spoke to Samaritans and it helped them. I’m sure this meant a lot to both of us. Sometimes I wonder who else I have helped.

3) I Know I Have People That Care About Me
Yes, I tend to talk about this frequently on my blog. Oh my parents don’t care, oh my friend doesn’t care, oh my counsellor doesn’t care. I’ll be honest and say I can’t really tell who cares about me in my life (although my friend started texting me again last night) but I know that if I write a post on my blog there will always be someone to reply who cares about me. Thanks guys!

4) It Gives Me A Reason To Wake Up In The Morning
That’s what depression does to you, it tries to pin you down in your home and stop you from ever doing anything again. When we have depression we need a reason to get out of bed in the morning, even if it’s to grab our laptop and write a post.

5) All The Poems I Read…
I follow quite a few poetry blogs, and some totally random ones too, and the talent some people on here have is amazing. I did not read much poetry before starting my blog but I was a big fan of rap so checking out some blogs to see the creative metaphors and rhymes people use was going to be something I would do. I’m glad I have, it’s opened my eyes to some different things.

6) …And I Can Share My Own Too!
I do get people telling me my poems are good. I’m not sure whether everyone is being kind because I can go crazy or whether they actually are great. Either way, I still feel better about myself when I share them with my readers. If I didn’t have a blog no one would ever see my poems (except for one I sent to my friend, and one I had published in a school book).

7) I Learn About Mental Illnesses
I’m no expert on mental illness, I don’t claim to be. I had never heard of borderline personality disorder before I started blogging, I didn’t realise how many people actually suffered from depression, I didn’t know people used ice to stop cutting themselves. I would class myself as intelligent (compared to my friends at least) but there are some things you can’t understand until you’ve spoken to people and experienced it. Blogging has taught me so much about mental illness, from both writing my own blog and reading others.

8) All Those Times I’ve Been Suicidal
There are so many times I’ve almost killed myself (I’m crying to myself now, not sure why), and there have been many times I’ve shared my thoughts on my blog. Whenever this happens all of my readers wake up as the “Depressionless needs a submarine hug” sirens come on. I guess this could fit under point 3 but it is safe to say my readers have probably kept me alive at least one of those times.

9) My Writing Has Improved
I think it has, well, I write differently. Maybe it is because blogging is a different style of writing that I am not used to but how I write now appears to be more relaxed than when I started. Did I just make this up? Possibly, but that’s how I feel. Maybe I feel more relaxed. I’m talking to myself again.

10) I Don’t Know, I Just Love It
I could quit blogging whenever I wanted, but I wont. Why? I love it!

Liebster Award [First Nomination]

Ooooh, an award! How exciting. I don’t know how to celebrate and I haven’t written my acceptance speech yet but thanks to Laura Bruj and lilfogygirl for the nominations, I have answered one of your sets of questions here and I’ll do the other one shortly. For more on the Liebster Award click here. Okay, let’s go!

1) If you could be something today, something to make you proud, what would you be?
This is the hardest question ever. Happy.

2) Why you started blogging?
Long story (not really). I started blogging as a way to talk about my depression, I could only talk to one person about it when I started blogging.

3) What would make you happy?
Besides the obvious? I want to see my friend who lives 3000 miles away.

4) What is one thing you can’t live without at the moment?
Well quite literally I can’t live without the song Thugz Mansion by 2Pac and Nas, I found it recently, love it, got me through a tough night. Acoustic Hip Hop!

5) The book or the movie?
Movie, I only like reading small books.

6) Do you have pets? If no, pick one would you would like to have.
Yeah, two black and white cats, Cosmos and Orion.

7) Share your favorite blog and describe in 3 words why?
Depression Darling, because it’s crazy.

8) Describe yourself in 3 words.
Strong, rich, handsome… no? Okay I choose confusing, sporty, witty.

9) Mountain or sea/ocean?
Probably the sea because I don’t see many of my friends joining me up a mountain.

10) What you do to relax?
Very, very long walks while listening to music. I then come back home and listen to more music.

11) Favorite scent/perfume.
Mmmmmmm, I don’t want to sound creepy but I know this girl who smells very nice. It sounds creepy to me, how do I tell her? Hey, can I sniff you?

And I Nominate
Well, I have to nominate some people so I shall choose bipolarsojourner, effortlessjess, kbailey373, Depression Darling and MindsLikeOurs.

Your 11 questions are:
1) Hugs or kisses?
2) If you had one superpower, which one would it be?
3) The one place you never want to visit?
4) What is the one thing you have always wanted to do?
5) What is your favourite food?
6) Describe your city/hometown in 5 words?
7) If you could speak one foreign language fluently, which one?
8) Cake or pie?
9) If you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life, which one?
10) If you could go down the pub and have a pint with three people (dead or alive), who would they be?
11) What was one thing that made you smile today?

And the rules are:
– Thank the person who has nominated you and link his/her blog in your post.
– Answer the questions above.
– Nominate 5-11 blogger, who have less than 200 followers.
– Make a new list with 11 questions.
– Put these rules in your post.
– Inform the blogger you have nominated.

Done. Goodbye!

[My Guest Post] Depression, Stigma and Society

My first guest post on another blog! Bipolarsojourner (a good friend, you will see him commenting on my blog regularly) has allowed me to post on his blog. I talk about the stigma attached to depression and why it means that many of the sufferers are not getting the care and treatment they need. The link is at the bottom of this post, I recommend you check out my post and his blog while you are there.

The first friend I told (except for my really good friend who lives 3000 miles away) could not understand how I had depression. “But you look so happy all the time” was one of the first things they said as we sat on the park bench discussing my mental illness. I just replied with “Yeah, I look happy, but I have depression”.

Click here to view the guest post on the bipolarsojourner blog.